How to phrase the words: "My life sucks" without swearing and being drawn to more and more depressive thoughts.
I'm on the edge, slightly trembling and one more breeze will send me tumbling down.

I'm overrated with this thing called "me".
I never used to be strong or outstanding, I'm the one in the back, holding the team spirit up. And now I'm nothing but useless, a real pain in the ass...
So you might ask what's going on.
So long story short:

This night is "Nacht der Museen" here in Frankfurt. I was so excited that I could go there with Andrea. I was doing a jig at the  metro stop when she called me just to say: "I've got the tickets!"
And now I'm sitting here, totally knock out due to an allergic bout. I'm tired, dizzy, depressed, frustrated and most of all angry.
Angry,  because my stupid body doesn't work right. Angry, because no doctor can find a freaking reason why my whole system is acting out of the normal.
Angry, because I might let down Andrea. Angry, because I'm feeling like a total waste of time and skin.

Now I've got three hours left that I'll use for recovery and dressing up... I'm screwed right now


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Quote for this day:

"You really thought I'd be content
A housewife in a gilded cage?
The sea, the sky, it's all the same;
Adventure being what I crave.
I'll never stop, I won't come down!
My passion's here in whirring gears.
This triumph of my female soul
I will not spoil with useless tears.
The deck vibrates beneath my shoes:
The rhythm of my beating heart.
I will not mourn what might have been,
Our story's done before it starts."

The Clockwork Dolls - Maiden Voyage