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I'm leaving my secure flat tomorrow and travel home to stay at my parents house for at least 4 days.
I have to distance myself from the chaotic situation I'm currently in and keep a clear head. I have pushed myself far beyond my emotional and rational limits and right now I feel weak and worn out. I just wanna scream: "Can't you stop pushing me around? All of you!" But they won't.
On the other hand I'm really looking forward to meeting Hannah and I'm quite positive that we can mend our friendship and get back to this "long-ago-good-times-feeling" we had during our A-levels and BB. (Gosh we were thick like thieves.) But inwardly I know, that all those good times give me cancer eventually. That they fill my heart with grief and soon I'll be back at a well known point of questioning my life and my decisions, I have come too far to turn back, but on the other hand I don't know how to make it to the next save spot. Sometimes I wonder, if I'm craving for that constant pain and lack of self-confidence.
It's kinda hard to stay positive in times like these.
I have to distance myself from the chaotic situation I'm currently in and keep a clear head. I have pushed myself far beyond my emotional and rational limits and right now I feel weak and worn out. I just wanna scream: "Can't you stop pushing me around? All of you!" But they won't.
On the other hand I'm really looking forward to meeting Hannah and I'm quite positive that we can mend our friendship and get back to this "long-ago-good-times-feeling" we had during our A-levels and BB. (Gosh we were thick like thieves.) But inwardly I know, that all those good times give me cancer eventually. That they fill my heart with grief and soon I'll be back at a well known point of questioning my life and my decisions, I have come too far to turn back, but on the other hand I don't know how to make it to the next save spot. Sometimes I wonder, if I'm craving for that constant pain and lack of self-confidence.
It's kinda hard to stay positive in times like these.
Quick Update
Currently still on Hiatus,
but recovering.
Slowly.
Steadily.
Gently.
Thank you so much for dropping by.
Hiatus
Still alive,
but barely breathing...
I'm too deep in,
way over my head...
This career-thing-so-called-life
is taking it all from me...
Ain't got a reason to smile,
but I promise, I'll be alright...
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Locked
I think I'm on a fast track to the next breakdown.
I just wish to lock myself away...
They say life is about learning to dance in the rain and not waiting 'til the storm has passed,
but right now I think that I will crumble from one little raindrop.
I'm just drowning in myself...
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"It comes in waves, I close my eyes.
Hold my breath and let it bury me.
I'm not okay, and it's not alright.
Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?"
Bring me the horizon - Drown
Hollywood Undead concert
Yesterday, after waiting half a year, I went to the concert of Hollywood Undead - finally!!!
It was really amazing!
I can't find the words to tell you how amazing it has been.
Clearly my personal highlight for this week and something - more precisely - a memory I will cling onto.
By now I have sore muscles and an even sorer throat, but this was totally worth it.
Don't want to miss one minute of the concert.
Thank you Hollywood Undead for an unforgettable evening!
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But we have heart
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